Home Is Where The Dream Is

 

There was a change in my life. Because of this, I had to redesign some parts of my room. There was an empty spot in the wall and because of that, I thought of purchasing a painting. I went to Laura Ashley store and saw a beautiful painting with a scenery of  purple flowers. I liked it however, the price was a bit expensive and told myself it’s not really a need that’s why I didn’t buy it. Then one day, I went to Wilko store to purchase something then I came across this painting / frame with a quotation,

 

“Travel the dream far enough so you find home.”

 

This painting resonated in my heart. I remembered my all time favourite book, “The Alchemist”. I read that book in 2014, the exact time in my life that I needed an inspiration to pursue my dreams. I thought of the lead character in The Alchemist, Santiago, an Andalusian shepherd boy. He left his town Andalusia to travel in search of a treasure. He travelled far enough and along the way, he met several people that gave him wisdom and met the love of his life while in search of the treasure. Santiago fell in love with Fatima and almost decided not to pursue his search for the treasure to be with Fatima. But Fatima doesn’t want Santiago to give up his dream just because he fell in love with her. She doesn’t want to be the reason why Santiago will stop chasing his dream. She encouraged Santiago to go and continue his journey. Fatima is happy to set Santiago free to pursue his dreams and to willingly wait for the time he comes back. She wants to be like the other ladies in her tribe who are waiting for their man to come back after a journey. I admired Fatima at that moment for becoming selfless.  I can still remember the conversation between Fatima and Santiago. Fatima told Santiago, “I love you because I love you. There’s got to be no reason for it.”

Santiago travelled his dream far enough and when he reached Egypt which was his final destination, he had a dream that the treasure he was looking was buried in the place where he came from, in his hometown, Andalusia. So he went home and found the treasure and then he decided to go back to Fatima.

Same is true with reality, we keep on looking, searching and traveling in life hoping that we will find the treasure in the faraway land. Remember the quotation, “The grass is greener on the other side of the fence.” Sometimes, this isn’t true. In life, we reach a point that we had travelled enough, worked hard enough, sacrificed enough, and then suddenly realized that this were not the dreams that we’re hoping for when we were young. That the dream is found in our home. Whatever home means to you. Home may be the country where you’re originally from, the province where you lived or the town where you grew up. Home may be your first love. You have travelled far enough only to realize that you are yearning and longing for your HOME. Home is where the heart is.

Looking at this piece of item in Wilko store, that’s how I interpreted it. It’s like my imagination was thinking those deep thoughts and realizations. Ending, I bought the frame and placed it on the wall in my room. Now there’s no more empty space in my wall. The frame was just cheap and very light so I was able to carry it in a bag on the way home.

 

Guys, how about you? How do you interpret that quote? 

The Royal Wedding of Prince Harry And Meghan

On May 19, 2018, I finally got to see Prince Harry in person and experience an event from the British Monarchy. It may not be near them but just being in the atmosphere of the royal wedding, it was enough. British Royal family is the most popular monarchy in the world. When Prince William was married to Kate Middleton, I was just a fresh college graduate in Manila, Philippines. Some media organization broadcasted a live telecast in the Philippines of Prince William’s wedding. I went back during the first blogs I published on 2011 and I remember, I blog about the wedding of Prince William and Duchess Kate. Here is the link…

Prince William and I

And 7 years later, Prince Harry has found the woman he fell in love with, he married Meghan Markle.

I heard of the Royal Wedding coming on May of 2018 when the news broke of Prince Harry’s engagement to Meghan Markle on November of last year. I knew I wanted to be in the crowd cheering for the newlyweds. I only decided to watch when I was with my friend’s friend, Chad. I toured him in Richmond Park and we were talking about a lot of things. He said that he extended his vacation here in London to witness the Royal Wedding because it’s only a once in a lifetime event. He and my friend are going to the Royal wedding. I checked my schedule if I have work on that day, gladly, there’s none. I happily said, Pwede ako sumama senyo?! (Can I come?). He said, “Of course!” I excitedly replied, “Yeyyy! Finally, I will be going to the Royal Wedding with friends.”

Me and my friend Karl has work on the 18th of May, we were on day shift at that time so we weren’t able to research that much about the Royal Wedding. The next day on May 19, the day of the wedding, we took the 8.22am train from Norbiton to Twickenham for 45 minutes, then got off the train and switched platform to ride the train from Twickenham to Windsor.

The TFL (Transport for London) added more trains going to Windsor for the Royal Wedding to accommodate more passengers. When we arrived in Windsor, there were staff of TFL asking for the train tickets. But since we didn’t research that much, we didn’t buy a ticket, instead Karl and I used our contactless debit cards and Chad and Tita Amy (my friend Astrid’s mother) used their oyster card. It was fine, it’s just that we need to purchase the train tickets to be able to enter Windsor. We were advised to refund the £11 (the amount that we tapped from Norbiton train station) in the TFL website and purchased the two way tickets because we won’t be allowed to go in without the ticket.

When we got in, we went with the flow of people until we reached the Windsor High Street. I must say, the vibe was very fun and festive. There were lots of British locals and people from UK and around the world. I saw tourists from Canada, Australia and Italy etc. I don’t know how we got in the place, we just walked and walked until we saw a part with not a lot of people and just stayed there. We were in front of the barricade and we were very close to the road and I couldn’t believe that the route of the procession was the one in front of us. We stayed in the place at around 11am and the wedding started in St. George’s Chapel at exactly 12pm. There were no big screens in the road but there were speakers all over the place, that way we can hear what’s happening in the ceremony. Then at half past 1, the procession started and everything happened so fast. The next thing we knew, the horse drawn carriage of Prince Harry and Meghan was on it’s way to us. I really wanted to see the wedding dress of Meghan and I was stuck seeing her dress and her face, I was amazed of the simplicity of her dress, her hair and make up and her over all look. She’s stunning! I like her personality and how she and Prince Harry wore their hearts on their sleeves.

It’s also nice to see Prince Charles walked Meghan down the aisle. I can see that Prince Charles is happy because he is in a good place now that he is married to Duchess Camilla. Everyone’s happy!

 

This is my very first YouTube video, The Windsor Vibe During the Royal Wedding of Prince Harry and Meghan.

P.S. I will create more videos to improve contents and my editing skills in the next few days or weeks.

 

And as we are familiar on how the fairytale story ends, I sincerely hope for this.

And they live happily ever after.

 

That is my hope not just for the Royal family but for everyone, that all of us will live happily everyday.

 

Thank you for watching! Enjoy!

Attending The Conflict Resolution Training

How to resolve a conflict? 

Last week, I attended a mandatory seminar in the hospital called “Conflict Resolution”. This was facilitated by Richard Evans, the head of the Facilities department of Kingston Hospital. It’s a seminar that aims to provide information to all staffs on what a conflict is, who are the most common to experience conflict and how to resolve it. Everyone working in the hospital may experience a conflict. However it’s the employees who have direct contact with the patients that are most likely to experience this like the nurses, doctors, physiotherapist and receptionist. I find my job to be a stressful one as we are dealing with the most vulnerable people, those who are sick, under the treatment of a medical condition and the unwell adults. It is also possible that we may experience aggression and frustration from patients and their relatives.

Admittedly, it adds to the pressure of our job whenever we speak to the patients and relatives about their concerns and questions. I learned in the seminar that to be able to respond effectively to the other person, it is advisable to do the following:

  1. Give the brain 2-3 seconds before replying
  2. Remain cool, not rising to the bait
  3. Speak calmly, firmly and softly
  4. Keep listening (the longer the other person speaks the more difficult it is to remain focused and to retain all the information)

The trainer also mentioned about Transactional Analysis and how it can help us to be aware and improve our capability to resolve a conflict. According to Google, Transactional Analysis is a system of popular psychology based on the idea that one’s behaviour and social relationships reflect an interchange between parental (critical and nurturing), adult (rational), and childlike (intuitive and dependent) aspects of personality established early in life.

In Transactional Analysis, I found out that we have 3 ego states:

  1. Parent
  2. Adult
  3. Child

Each person has the Parent ego state, Adult ego state and the Child ego state. In the Parent ego state, we can either be Critical or Nurturing. Critical is being direct, explicit and exact while Nurturing is being caring and permissive. The Adult ego state is the present state which can be described as rational and questioning. The Child ego state can either be Adapted or Free. In the Adapted category, we can be defiant and complaining while being Free is described as being curious and fun loving. The trainer gave an activity to us where we found out our most dominant ego state. The result of the activity showed that the most dominant in me is the Nurturing Parent ego state where I identified myself as caring, empathetic, comforting, helpful, sympathetic, loving, warm, etc. Usually, this is the most dominant ego state of the nurses. My second highest score is the free-child state with the words that accompany myself like being happy, excited, hugging, laughing, emotional, inspired and fun loving. So, my two dominant ego states are Nurturing Parent and Free-child. We were told that no answers are correct. Every answer is personal depending on each person. It’s a personality test. The main aim of this activity is for us, participants, to be aware of our current ego state because that is how we usually resolve a conflict.

According to the trainer, for the conflict to be resolved effectively, we should be on our Adult ego state because only in this state is where we are rational, questioning, at present, neutral and balance. The Adult ego state has the most ability to resolve conflicts. The traits of the Adult ego are analytical, unemotional, negotiating, observant, interested and calm. We, the participants became aware of our dominant ego states and we were encouraged to make more conscious effort to be in our Adult ego whenever we are resolving conflicts.

I wrote this post to remind myself and not to forget about this because this is a good takeaway from a training. I learned a lot and I can use this in my everyday life.

Guys, what are your thoughts about this?

 

*** Featured image was from google.com

Where I Had My Samsung Phone Repaired For Free?

I bought my cellphone, Samsung Galaxy S7 Edge on December 2016 in Carphone Warehouse in Kingston Town Centre. The phone has been with me for 1 year and 5 months. Samsung Galaxy S7 Edge has a very slim shape and shiny texture. There were times that my phone slipped from my hand and dropped it on the floor.

Start of 2018, I noticed a small black dot on the upper right hand side of the screen, near the time display. When I asked my friend, Clio to have a look at it, he said that it’s a damage on the LCD. After two weeks, there was a vertical  pink line that appeared on the right hand side of the screen. Aside from the dot and the vertical line, my cellphone is working perfectly. What’s really important to me is the display of time whenever I’m using my phone. And since there was a black dot on the time display, I wouldn’t determine the time right away. I still have to lock my phone and then press the menu button so the clock appears on the lock screen.

After a week, I went to Carphone Warehouse because as far as I know my phone is still under the warranty. I had my phone checked if the damage is covered by the warranty and the staff said yes, it’s covered. He then instructed me to back up the files of my phone because there’s a possibility that the device might lose all the data if my phone will need a reset. I transferred the files on my phone to my external hard drive and went back to Carphone Warehouse after three weeks. I was with my friend who bought the same model of Samsung on December 2016. With regards to the condition of my friend’s phone, the battery is no longer working, the screen has a crack and it doesn’t turn on anymore. Me and my friend were assisted by a different staff member and were told that if our phones were dropped, it voids the warranty of 2 years. Disappointed, he advised us to go to Samsung Support Centre in front of John Lewis, which was just near the shop where we were.

My friend and I went to Samsung Support Centre and waited for a few minutes before a member of staff assisted us. I was informed that if there’s a damage in the LCD even if there’s no damage on the screen, they will have to change both the old LCD and screen to a new one, so approximately, it might cost me around £180. So expensive! The engineer will have to check the phone first before they quote the amount to be paid. I was advised to wait for their call. Afterwards, the paper work was done, and we were told that it might take a day for our phones to get repaired. That is so much better that to have to wait for 1 to 2 weeks in Carphone Warehouse. Their procedure is also to send our phones to Samsung Support Centre.

I waited for the call from the Samsung Support Centre but I did not receive any. After 2 days, I received a voice message from them saying that my phone is ready for pick up. I called the number back and I was told that the damage is covered by the warranty. It was a good news to me because I won’t need to pay £180 or more.

I went to town the next day to collect my phone and I was very happy when I got it because it’s like a brand new Samsung S7 Edge. There was a plastic cover in the screen and the menu pad, they cleaned the screen, removed the finger prints and when I turned on the phone, the dot and the vertical line were gone. The new repaired phone  was handed to me in a very cute casing which says, “Hello, I’m back” which made me glad because obviously, my phone is back and it looks like a brand new unit. I’m very happy and satisfied with the service of Samsung. Even though I bought the phone from a retailer which is Carphone Warehouse, they are honouring the warranty and repairing the phone with original parts regardless if the phone was bought from them or from a retailer. I must say, the customer service is superb.

 

It’s a great help that the staff from Carphone Warehouse redirected us to Samsung Support Centre. I was not aware that Samsung has a support centre that’s why I’m sharing this information. I’m not sure if we have Samsung Support Centre in Manila, Philippines. I hope we have. If you are living in Kingston, you can have your Samsung gadgets repaired in Samsung Support Centre, Kingston Town Centre.

Snapshots of My UK RN Journey

Hello guys! I apologize for being absent in the blogging world for several months. I have a love affair with blogging. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I just don’t feel like doing it. I went for hiatus in blogging to concentrate on a new chapter in my life. I had shared in the previous posts that I had moved to London, England on 2016 to work as a nurse. It’s been more than a year now. Looking back, I never thought that I will be at this point in my life. Remember the quarter life crisis I experienced on my early 20s, the career shifts, etc.

These were my fears before I moved to the UK. Can I make it living on my own? Can I start a new life in a different continent, in a different country, a place that is very far from where I came from. It’s been more than a year now. And in that 1 year, I’ve learned to take a risk in life and love. I tried to face my fear of doing something I’d never thought I can do. I had learned to trust life, to trust in the Higher Being. I believe that there is a reason for everything. That things will happen if it’s meant to happen. I don’t question life anymore because at the end of the day, something good will rise from all the negative things.  Hope is moving forward even if it’s hard because you want to get pass that stage of your life. If you are not yet contented in to where you are right now, if you think you deserve more, then you are right. If you are not yet happy, then strive to achieve whatever it is that will make you happy. Whether it’s in your job, relationships, family, health, etc.

I went on break in blogging because I concentrated on settling in my new life and career here in London. I reviewed for the exam, (while working) for me to become a registered nurse in the UK and thankfully passed the examination on July 2017. For the readers who are thinking that it was an ‘easy-everything-1-year’ since I arrived here, it was definitely not. There were probably more failures in this road to UK compared to everything that I had ventured ever in my life. The majority of the steps in applying as a nurse in the UK, I had failures. But why didn’t I give up? According to Sonia Ricotti, never give up because just when you are to give up is when things are about to turn around in a grand way. I hold on because I know that great things are waiting for me around the corner. This is the e-mail that I had been waiting for on July 2017. Finally, I passed my exam after two failed attempts!

The whole process was very hard and tedious and it took me 1 year and 9 months to get my PIN. That is from taking my IELTS on October 2015 until I passed the Part 2 – Test of Competency on July 2017. To be honest, I cried when I received the result on my e-mail. This is the destination of all the hardships that I had to go through when I was still working as a nurse in the Philippines. This is the destination, but the journey is still the sweetest. So after receiving this e-mail, I immediately informed my ward manager Katherine, the Practice Development Nurses Siobhan and Richard, my closest friends here in the UK, my siblings, Ryan, and made a long distance call to my parents in Nueva Ecija, Philippines. My mother was very happy and said that she had always been praying for me, I know my father did the same.

Before I passed the exam, I worked as Band 3 – ONP and was wearing this white uniform.

After receiving the e-mail, I excitedly arranged my Nursing and Midwifery Council (NMC) registration and received my PIN after 48 hours. Afterwards, me and my friend Fe, who also passed the exam, went to the sewing room of the hospital to fit our new band 5 uniforms. I chose two dresses and 1 tunic with trousers. I’ve always wanted to wear dress with black stockings and black shoes on duty. And when I got the uniform, my new ID and new name plate,  I lay them all on my bed and I even took a photo of them. Here it is… 

This is me wearing my new uniform happily. Simple joy… Pinaghirapan ko kasi talaga ito! (I really worked hard for this!)
 *** P.S. I had written this a long time ago and it stayed on my draft folder for 7 months. I want to publish this to remind myself of my UK journey and the happiness I felt when I became a registered nurse in the UK. I know being a nurse in the UK is just a phase in my life, that I should enjoy every moment of it even if the work is hard and be grateful for the opportunity that was given to me. With this experience, I am learning a lot not only as nurse but also as a person. I have grown and realised on my own what really matters in life and it’s not money, travel or career. Despite the fact that I’m living in a first world country, I am still a simple person, my ultimate dream remains the same which is to have my own family, be a wife and mother. I will use this as a motivation to my work to give quality care to my patients and share the lessons that I learned here in my blog to anyone who might stumble on my life stories. To you reading this, do not give up even if you had failures, if you really want to achieve your dreams, keep on trying.
Go and reach for your dreams! 

The Whitney Houston Show Memories

Last night, I watched “The Greatest Love of All: The Whitney Houston Show” in Evertim Apollo in Hammersmith, London. Whitney Houston was honoured by the singer Belinda Davids who sang the greatest hits of the late singer. How did I know about this show? Actually, everything was very spontaneous. When I opened my Groupon app, I accidentally pressed the featured option, and The Whitney Houston Show popped out. Interesting, I told myself. So I searched google for the trailer of the show and got excited because I know a lot of Whitney Houston songs. I’m on my late 20s, I grew up listening to the songs of her in the radio and CD player. The venue of the show was in Evertim Apollo in Hammersmith, London. I thought that it was in Central London but when I checked City Mapper (this is the app that I use to go anywhere in the city of London with suggested routes and mode of transportation), I found out that the fastest way is by riding a bus. I just need to ride Bus 85 from the Queen’s Road/ Kingston Hospital and drop off to Shawford Court station then wait for Bus 72 and drop off to Hammersmith Bridge Road station. Afterwards, I only walked for 4 minutes and then I already saw the venue, Evertim Apollo. When I arrived 25 minutes before 8pm, there were two queues, one was for those who already have their tickets and the second one is for sales and ticket collection. I went to the second queue as I already booked the ticket the night before the show. That is me, so spontaneous of everything.

Outside of the Evertim Apollo

I noticed that with the shows that I attended here in London, there were very tight security measures being implemented as UK had history of terrorist attacks. Five minutes before 8.00pm, I finally got seated. I bought the ticket last night for a price of £50. I watched the show alone and was seated with two lovely ladies and also grannies, Maggie and Jackie. They bought their ticket on December of last year for £40, and they compared and concluded that there isn’t that much difference from the price of tickets bought last year and the night before the show. Remember that I bought mine for £50. Maggie and Jackie were telling me they’re still waiting for their favourite song Run To You, but unfortunately, it was not included in the songs sang by Belinda. During the 30 minute break, Jackie told me to try to watch for a Tennis match in Wimbledon sometime on June because it is a great experience to be with the atmosphere of a tennis match. According to her, it’s more exciting when you are physically present in the venue rather than watching it in a television. She said that after the match, she went inside the court and almost cried. Haha.. For her, it was a very emotional moment to be picked and be given an opportunity to watch the Wimbledon Tennis match.

My two lovely seatmates, Jackie and Maggie

Going back to the show, Belinda introduced herself after singing few songs. She said that she was born in Fort Elizabeth, South Africa and growing up, she wanted to sing like her idol, Whitney Houston. Well, dreams do come true because now she was the one chosen to honour the music and legacy of her idol. She looked like Whitney Houston, her skin colour, her hair, the gestures, her powerful voice and she was dressed exactly the same as what Whitney wore during her past performances.

Belinda Davids going to the audience

I thought that The Whitney Houston Show is like other West End musicals that are being shown in London all throughout the year, but it’s not. I decided to watch this show because upon searching, it will only be shown for 1 night in London, it’s now or never. The next day they will perform in Cardiff for 2 consecutive nights and in Manchester the night after. Belinda gave a stellar performance with her powerful voice belting out the Whitney Houston hits and received several standing ovations. The price I paid to watch this show is definitely worth it.

Whitney Houston is very popular in the Philippines. I grew up hearing her songs. I also remember that our Elementary graduation song was “One Moment in Time” that’s why I can still remember its lyrics. And since the Filipinos love to sing, Whitney Houston songs are always being sang by singers in the television shows, concerts and in the singing contests.

Here are some of the videos I took from the show.

 

The audience does not only comprise of older people but a mix of young and old, male and female. There were grannies and grandpas, there were married couples, group of friends and young people. I was dancing and singing my heart out (as heard on the videos that I took) as well as the whole audience. These were some of the songs belted out by Belinda: I Will Always Love You, Where Do Broken Hearts Go, I Have Nothing, The Greatest Love of All, One Moment In Time, I Wanna Dance With Somebody, etc. There was a live band and the National Philharmonic Concert Orchestra which gave fantastic music. The quality of music is really different, very soulful and grand if there’s an orchestra playing. This is a great show  worth spending.  It will entertain you, you will sing, you will dance and you will remember the talent, music and memory of Whitney Houston.

This is the video/ trailer that I watched that made me decide to come and see the show.

My selfie after coming home at around 12midnight.

 

I just want to end this post by leaving this quote from the book that I’m currently reading, “Do less, get MORE” by Shaa Wasmund. I remember I also read this quote from the blog of Tom Basson (www.tombasson.com).

It says there…

-What makes you feel alive? “Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

When I was watching this show, I feel alive because I was enjoying my time, and that I am living my life in the present moment and in my own terms. I think I need to remind myself all the time to only do things that will make me genuinely happy.

That’s it for now. Guys, please leave a comment below if you have watched this show or still planning to watch. Have a great day ahead!

 

***I got the featured image from MyTicket.co.uk from google.com.

Cardiac Arrest Experience In The Ward

It was a regular night shift, I was assigned in the middle bay when I heard the charge nurse speaking to the Outreach nurse that one of his patients was not alert and oxygen saturation going down. We immediately went to the room and saw the patient unconscious and pale looking. I went back to the nurse station to dial the emergency hotline to ask for adult resuscitation team to come to our ward. I had experienced several cardiac arrest situations in my nursing career when I was still working in the Philippines but it was rare here in the UK. One of the reasons is that since the majority of our patients are aged 70 to 100, if they deteriorate, they or their family were choosing the DNAR or the do not resuscitate status if their heart stops beating.

Unfortunately, we were unable to revive the patient even though we did our best. The leader of the resuscitation team said after, “Good job everyone.” The reason why I am writing this experience is because after the cardiac arrest, I was very silent and there were a lot of thoughts running through my head.

The resuscitation team made a team debrief after and we’ve talked about what happened. The two senior doctors facilitated the team debrief and they’ve discussed why we stopped the resuscitation. The female senior doctor said that everyone’s role is vital because we are a team. During the resuscitation, she asked everyone if we agree to continue the resuscitation of the patient, only few members answered but we still carry on the resuscitation and the reason why she asked us all to answer is because she values the decision of everyone. She said we should never ever say that “I am just an F1 doctor” or “I am just a band 5 nurse” or “I am just a cleaner.” She wants us to speak, for example, it might be that the patient had said something to us during the day that is very vital for us to continue the resuscitation.

Another important thing she said is to listen to what is being said for the update of the situation and for the delegation of task. And since the patient is in an isolation room, she said that appropriate PPE (Personal Protective Equipment such as gloves, masks, etc.) must be readily available inside the room because we still have our families, our children, our partners that we love that’s why we should take care of ourselves.  

This is my first cardiac arrest experience as band 5 staff nurse in the hospital, and the resuscitation process in the Philippines is different here in the UK that’s why I was still grasping and watching what everyone was doing. And by hearing from the doctors say, “Good job everyone”, I said to myself, “Wow, I was valued” even though I felt that I don’t deserve that because there’s a lot of things that I do not know. I felt like my role and effort was appreciated.  I felt like I was enough no matter how small my role was or how little the help I have given. I am enough. There were a lot (what I mean with a lot is really A LOT) of improvements especially on my part but what was seen by the doctors were our efforts. That’s one of the things that I really like about working here in the UK, being treated professionally and with respect. Value for one another and Respect are two of the core values of our hospital. I’ve realized that the workers and staffs are living up to these values. No pointing of fingers, surely there were a lot to improve but these things were addressed in the right manner in the Team Debrief.

I went on my sleeping break for an hour and still, I was recapturing what happened earlier. I said to the charge nurse, “Rick, I don’t know why but after the cardiac arrest, I was very silent, I don’t know what to say. I still have a lot of things to learn and that I do not know.” He replied, “Yes, there’s still a lot of things that you don’t know, that I don’t know and that they do not know.” He’s trying to tell me that nobody knows everything. (Why is everyone so kind in here?) I plan to speak to my manager to book me a study leave to attend Intermediate Life Support and all other trainings as I see the vitality of these in my line of work. Remember how I’ve learned a lot about communicating with distressed and worried people in the training: Sage and Thyme.

Probably one of the reasons why there’s a lot of thoughts running through my head after is because I was feeling stressed lately at work. There were a lot of highs and lows with my job. We are happy whenever our patients get to be discharged but we also had patients who deteriorated and who passed away and this emergency cardiac arrest. We are not robots, we have our feelings of sadness and loss for the family and we are also affected. That’s how emotional our job is.

Just to end this, I can say that there are times that it’s busy, tiring and stressful but it’s also fulfilling whenever we get to provide the comfort and needs of our patients and whenever we see them happy.

By the way, I searched in YouTube for the demo of cardiac arrest from the Resuscitation Council (UK) for the readers who are not from the health care industry to imagine the scenario. This is how it’s being done. Ideally. 

One more thing, the featured image is from google.

Thanks for reading, as always! =)  Please comment below your thoughts about this post.

Mamma Mia! – The Best Feel-Good Musical Worth Watchin’ Now

It was a very tiring day after a bank shift (overtime) in Royal Eye Unit on Thursday, the 8th of March. I decided to work on my two days off so that I can earn on top of my monthly salary since I plan to do nothing on those days. Royal Eye Unit is the outpatient department in the hospital that caters ophthalmic services for diagnosis, management and treatment like cataract surgery and laser. It’s the busiest outpatient department in the whole hospital but the work is still manageable compared to the ward. I was tired after that shift and thought I’d like to try something new, that which can only be experienced in London. I’ve long set this plan to watch a musical in the West End however it’s always been pushed aside. So after that tiring bank shift in Royal Eye Unit, I surfed google for West End musicals and watched each trailer. I shortlisted four shows to watch which were Aladdin, Lion King, The Girl in the North County and Mamma Mia. I let go of Aladdin and Lion King because I told myself to only watch these shows with my special someone, loved ones, family or friends. The Girl in the North County is a bit serious and I might feel sad while watching it because I plan to watch alone. Then I watched the trailer of Mamma Mia again and read the reviews and it had wonderful ratings and I thought that this seems like a very fun and happy show. When I looked at the available seats, there was 1 seat left in the Balcony and thought this must have been for me. So I booked the show for Friday evening, 19.45 which costs £37.

So after my shift in Royal Eye Unit at 17.00 on the 9th of March, I immediately went home to my flat to change clothes and prepare myself to watch the musical. I didn’t even eat dinner in the flat and went straight ahead to central London. I ride the train from Norbiton to Waterloo Station which takes approximately 30 minutes. I felt really hungry upon arriving at Waterloo station so I ate quickly in Starbucks and ordered Mocha coffee and Bagel. I’m supposed to ride a bus to Novello Theatre which is the venue of this musical however, it was raining and I was having a hard time looking for the correct bus station using the app CityMapper. And since it is only 15 minutes left before the show starts, I booked an uber and in 10 minutes, I arrived in Novello Theatre, just in time for the start of the show.

Novello Theatre

The performance starts at exactly 19.45 with live music and Sophie (the main character) appeared in the stage with her friends. I didn’t watch the movie Mamma Mia that’s why I have no idea what the story is about. I only found out about it as I watch the flow of the events in the musical. I was telling myself, “Ah alright, so that’s the story, lovely!” I don’t want to spoil you readers but you might probably have watched the movie or read the description in the trailer already. The musical was very fun and it is true what I read in the reviews. If you’re looking for a show that gives good vibes, and if you want to laugh, sing with Abba songs (who doesn’t know any Abba songs?) with live music and vocals, this is the show to watch. And even though I watched it alone, the whole audience including me enjoyed the show, we were clapping while singing the songs Dancing Queen, Thank You For The Music, Mamma Mia, I Have a Dream and Slipping Through My Fingers.

The main character Sophie played by Georgina Castle is a spark of joy during the whole musical. It is evident that she enjoys performing and that her smile lightens up the whole theatre. And the whole casts as well, they were very fun, happy and full of energy. I sincerely enjoyed this show and I even called my friend to tell her about my experience. Now I’m planning to watch other musicals.

These were the performers. The photo I got from google link, http://mamma-mia.com/read-news.php?n=mamma-mia-london-welcomes-new-cast-2017

My face after the show. All smile and capturing photos of London at night.

Have you watched Mamma Mia? Please comment below your thoughts about the show.

Hillsong Church Easter Sunday

Today is the second of April, 2018. How fast the time flies? It’s almost the end of the first quarter of 2018 and I didn’t even notice. The holy week has just ended. As usual for us working in the hospital, we don’t have holidays, I mean the hospital never goes on holiday. It’s open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year for the service of the people who are sick.

It was not known to a lot of people but I’ve been struggling in my life recently. And these struggles made me question life and God as well. I know this struggle is nothing compared to what others are experiencing but for me, this is already something that weakens, breaks and hurt me. This made me question life and God with a lot of why’s. Why do I have to experience this? Why do I need to be in this dilemma? Did I do something wrong? I’ve waited and worked hard for this, but suddenly, why do I have to choose between two options that I really love? I am just fulfilling my dream.

I’m a firm believer of God’s plan, but it doesn’t deny the fact that I am hurting. I was telling myself that I won’t be able to know why these things are happening now but in the future everything will fall into place. But knowing this doesn’t change the fact that presently, it hurts. I was hoping that the pain I’m feeling will be gone soon.

It was my first time to attend the Hillsong church. I told myself, why only now, I’ve been here in London for more than a year already. The venue was in Palladium theatre to accommodate larger audience for Easter Sunday. It was a long queue before we got inside the venue but we didn’t mind. During the service I remembered my SFC (Singles for Christ) days, singing praise and worship songs, praising Him, letting go and letting God. After the praise and worship part, there was a preaching followed by the presentation about the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus Christ. In the presentation, they modernized the setting, but the story and the lessons are the same. It was a stellar performance with complete visual effects, lighting, singing and dancing of great performers. It was beautiful but I wasn’t really affected by the presentation, there was even a time in the play that I fell asleep not because the performance was bad or boring but because of lack of sleep the night before. I don’t know what happened but the following morning after I wake up, it was the first time that I didn’t feel the weight in my heart. I felt very at peace and trustful of the journey that I am right now. After all, love is supposed to be patient and kind. I went to work joyful and happy. I dealt with the patients with smiles and laughter, building rapports and uttering silly jokes (which is unusual of me). I hope this is the start of the moving forward process.

I’ll be fine.