Let’s take a little time to breathe.

Inhale… Exhale…

Inhale… Exhale…

Inhale… Exhale…

 

These were the instructions shouted to us by our PE teachers during stretching and before allowing us to start any sport or activities requiring physical power. Breathing exercises are always part of the stretching. Why? Stretching serves as the starter. It stretches our muscles a little and prepares them for an upcoming vigorous activity. So as not to strain and cause cramps which would affect our physical condition later on.

 

Same as through with life, sometimes we really need time to breathe for a while. We need time to rest to prepare ourselves for our next endeavor. I wanna share a brief “what’s-goin’-on-story” about my life right now. I am expecting to start my training for my next job today, June 8, 2012. Today’s really the schedule. But last Monday, I received a call from them saying that due to many activities, they’ve decided to postpone the training on June 29.  So, it’s like almost a month of waiting. After the call, the thought sinked in. So I’ll be vacant for a month. I shared it to a friend from my previous company, and he said, “Ah… Ok lang yan, mahirap dn magsimula agad, hinga hinga muna bago sumabak uli”.  No ifs, no buts… I replied, “Sige na nga, hindi na ko magmamadali. I’ll take my time”. He’s right. He shared his experience of transferring from one to job to the next one without taking a rest and he would not want me to experience it. Considering that it’ll be a comeback to my real profession, so I really need some adjustment. His advice gave me a reassurance that it’s just okay, i don’t need to rush things.

 

So while waiting, I’m thinking of enhancing my skill in one field I’m passionate about. Hmm… I wanna call these moments,  “productive and purposeful waiting”. 🙂

Reality Check

I again had numerous realizations when I was talking to a friend last night. The road to our dreams is not easy. During high school, you just write them, lay down all your dreams in a piece of paper, then hold on to it till you graduate high school, go to college and have your bachelor’s degree. You will know the real world when you are already working. You will experience lots of difficulties, stress, pressure, challenges, etc. You will be pushed to the limit until a thought will enter you mind, saying “I want to give up”. But a thought is just a thought unless you entertain it. As long as it doesn’t run into your system, particularly in your mind, it’s nothing.

These past few weeks till now, I have to be honest, I am pressured. Not only at work, but in some other aspects of my life. When you look at me, I look fine, but deep inside, things are battling inside my head. So I need some inspirational thoughts.

When I read a good point from newspaper, magazines, books, etc., I write them down in my journal. Here’s one I read a few years ago from an Advertising magazine. An inspiring message which is a part of the valedictory address of Mikaela Fudolig, 16 years old, who graduated Summa Cum Laude (BS Physics) at the University of the Philippines .

 

Take not the road less traveled.

Rather, make new roads,

Blaze new trails,

Find new routes to your dreams.

We may not know

How far we can go.

But if we are brave,

defiant searchers of excellence,

we will go far.

Explore possibilities,

that others may get a similar chance.

-True enough. Let us not be discouraged if life doesn’t turn out the way we dream of it to be. If plans are not met, don’t stop. Instead, strive more. Let’s have courage to continue to fight in the battle that we’re into. Never ever give up.

Plus, we have our God who loves us. 🙂

Never too late to start again

The good side of committing a mistake is it leaves a lesson that we will never forget for the rest of our lives. The pain it brought, the tons of headaches, the tears, the worries and anxieties are enough to teach us one big lesson in life.

Everyday, lessons are learned in a thousand ways. Some through realizations. And some through reflections.

Two weeks ago, I watched a very good movie, “The Straight Story”. It’s about an old man, Alvin Straight, who decided to make up with his brother whom he had misunderstandings and hadn’t talk to for 10 years. He made up his mind to end the silences and the cold war upon knowing that his brother suffered from stroke. What’s more moving about the movie is the distance between the two of them is 300 miles. Alvin went in his brother’s place on his own, riding not a car but a lawn mower. He encountered lots of challenges along the way, but he didn’t give up. It must have been that everyone who watched this movie have thought of all the broken relationships they have now and in the past.

It’s never too late for everything. We can always start again.

*This post is related to a good thing that happened today. At last, all is well. Thank You Lord for an answered prayer. 🙂

Still in One Way

I have the desire to write now but I can’t think of a topic to discuss. I will just type everything that’s going through my mind.

Let’s talk about transition. If we thought of what life is waiting for us 20 years from now, we wouldn’t mind it, the far future. Twenty years… We would thought of it as a long term vision, but when I look back in my life, time happens so fast. Transition happens, we just don’t see it happening. We only realize it when it’s done. And we get amazed of the significant changes physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually.

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Every phase of our lives has transitions. As we go through every circumstances, it leaves a mark in our hearts and memory.

Whenever I play the songs “Still” and “One Way”, (the only two songs I remembered when I was still a participant in the CLP), I remember my old self. Happy but not happy, sad but not sad (if you could read between the lines). Feeling empty and searching for the purpose of my existence. Before, there were moments of tears, longingness and emptiness. “Still” is such a heartfelt song. The memories of who I was before are brought back together, the purposeful searching, the sleepwalking, the long stare in the nothingness but then, realizing I am now brought to “One Way”.

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The way towards Jesus.

One of the million questions is being answered momentarily.

What a journey it has been…

As they say, it’s not the destination but the journey that counts the most. The reality that brings us excitement is that everyday surprises us with the innocence of  whom we’ll bump into and what situation we’ll encounter.

Everytime I go to Makati, from the house to our head office I usually rush, so I ride on the MRT.

But after office, at 5.30pm, I don’t mind taking the long cut, even if it takes 2 hours travel on my way home. For as long as I can avoid the MRT, I will. I usually take the LRT because the situation is more tolerable even though it’s farther. And sometimes, when I feel so tired and disappointed and stressed, I ride on the jeepney from Gil Puyat Station to Blumentritt Dimasalang. Then have another long jeepney ride from Blumentritt to home in Caloocan City. The travel time usually takes 3 hours. I prefer it, rather than go through the hassle of taking MRT. (This is not a practical idea. I rarely do this.)

 On my way to the office through MRT, my imagination is always working. Once I get into the train, I will only look at the window, and in an instant, my wide imagination starts to operate. (But I’m still vigilant from pickpockets) For example, envisioning myself traveling in European countries or walking in the mountain slopes of Poland, Scotland or New Zealand (the simple life I always dream), being recognized by my bosses at work, qualifying for the trip incentives, etc. That’s what I like about taking the long cut, I have time to imagine. I have time to dream of the best things I could possibly have, of the opportunities coming, of the places I’ll visit, of friends, strangers and special people I’ll meet in my life.

I want to dream… ‘Cause it’s free.

Every day is a journey, all the people we met in the past, all the acquaintances who made us smile and laugh, and our family and friends who stayed with us had made our lives fruitful, memorable, worth living and cherishing.

 You? What do you imagine when you are in a journey? 🙂

What is that SOMETHING?

The workshop I attended last Saturday in the SFC Icon is entitled, “There’s something about Mary”. Why did I choose this workshop? Actually, I was discerning for a while what to choose. I think it took me 5 times of Facebook opening for several days, and read the list of workshops again and again before the above title struck me. I remember what I felt when I read the lines from the description of workshop. It says, “How in our lowliness, powerlessness, we can see the Lord’s light shine in our lives”. Once, we’ve been in our lowest.

The speaker said, “There is something about Mary, what is that something? We’ve grown curious about that something. But what is it?”

It’s not actually something, but someone. There’s someone about Mary. And that is Jesus. Jesus is the point of Mary. We shouldn’t stop to Mary, because Mary is the vessel towards Jesus. Our devotion to Mary should always lead to Jesus to strengthen our faith in Him.

The speaker presented a picture of Mary looking very disturbed upon hearing what the angel Gabriel had told her, that she’ll become the mother of the son of God. The picture of Mary had shown that she felt unworthy, confused and doubtful of herself. But why is it that among other women during that time, she was chosen to carry in her womb the son of God. It was because of her simplicity, humility and faith.

The implication…. Once or several times in our lives, we received a blessing or are wanting something, but then, we doubt our capabilities that we are deserving of that blessing. In what aspect? A lot. In our career, in discerning for our one true love, etc. For example, we met our ideal man/woman before. And upon knowing them, we’ve felt that we are not worthy of that person or worthy of the love we’ll receive from them. They’re too perfect, too good to be true, too good looking and too kind for us. With those worries, we hide away and locked the door of our hearts. It actually shows lack of self confidence. What we learned from Mary, despite her worries and feeling of inadequacies, she accepted the calling and just trusted God.

I also feel unworthy sometimes. Now, I realized to accept great tasks and responsibilities handed to me and welcome special people in my life. It’s a challenge. God will not give us something we cannot handle. Let’s us trust and have faith in our hearts. Now I know the reason why I was in the seminar, to remove the feeling of unworthiness in my heart. To God, we are always worthy. And we are always enough. GREAT GOD.

Green thumb

I can still remember a story in my reading book in grade 2 entitled Green thumb. The story is about a girl named Maria. Maria is known to her barrio as a lady with a green thumb. It is, that whatever she plants, will grow abundantly. With the fascination from that story and with my young and innocent mind, I’ve always wanted to be like Maria. Having the skills to plant and grow flowers and vegetables. I had the idea, but I just can’t give my 100% in fulfilling that goal. I tried, but sometimes I procrastinate. So sad…

But hey, when I went home to the province this Christmas vacation, I noticed in our backyard the pineapple leaves I planted several years ago (3 years ago I think). It has grown larger and longer. It’s now more than 12 inches tall. When I planted it, it was only like 3 inches tall. I don’t know anyone being able to plant pineapple in Nueva Ecija. Pineapple is known to be harvested in Bukidnon. Now, I’m still waiting for my little pineapple to bear a fruit. If it happens, I’ll record and update it only here. No matter how small the fruit it bears, I would be so happy to eat and share it to my family. I’ll be proud to have planted a pineapple, all by myself.

Here’s my pineapple tree. =)

 

But the greatest of these is LOVE.

Grateful and overwhelmed are the two most felt emotions I had this year 2011. Though there were challenges when looking back, it’s still a wonderful ride. I learned a lot, I had nice experiences, I shared moments of laughter (laughed like there’s no tomorrow), I sang, I danced, I cried, I served, I worshiped and a lot more productive deeds.

In the advent recollection I attended last December 10, 2011 in St. Jude Church, Father Rocky discussed the importance of the true meaning of happiness and love. He defined happiness as the legitimate source of love and sharing. As Saint Paul made a meaningful illustration of LOVE. This is very true…

Language – Love = Soundless

Give everything + Martyrdom – Love = Valueless

Give all to the poor – Love = I am nothing

What we do not need, we should not own.

Here’s a famous chapter in the bible talking about love.

 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1-13)

 
Lord, THANK YOU for these realizations. I will always have these in my mind.

Today… I am twenty-three.

Few days ago, again I felt something strange. It was a usual day for me. I woke up 7 in the morning, had my breakfast, took a bath, prepare myself to work. In the office, a client asked me what is the date. I looked at the calendar, and I was a little bit “shocked” to see that it was already December 1, 2011.  Let me clarify this, I am logical that time. =p But it was only then I realized that it’s been almost a year since my 22nd birthday. Time flies so fast, especially when we are enjoying. Now, it has been a year. Twelve months of complex dreams, opportunities, emotions, feelings and adventures were gained before my 23rd birthday.  And I’m sure, there will be a lot more exciting ones in the coming days, months and years.

A while ago, an officemate surprised me and gave a gift before I left the office. A letter was inside it, and when I read it on my way to Loreto Church via LRT, I got teary-eyed when I read these specific lines: “Stay good =) Hindi for me… But for the Man who died for us.”

Another reflection a few days were these lines I read from Bo Sanchez’s blog. It says:
God didn’t create you for you.
God created you for others.
You’re not here in this planet for yourself.
You’re here to be a rich blessing to others.

Being selfless. Lord, thank you for another blessed year for me.  My best year so far.

My first project

Last Nov. 13, 2011, I attended the Powerpoint and Moviemaker workshop organized by another SFC chapter, from 1-B.  It was so generous of them to share their knowledge and expertise in this area. I learned a lot, coming from someone whose course in college was completely not related to computers and its applications. I now have an idea on how to navigate the ribbon toolbar in the powerpoint and moviemaker.  I was so impressed in Windows Live Moviemaker. My! It was so easy to use. After the workshop, I got excited in making my first movie /or music video. I just finished one before making this post. To all experts who’ll see this, I think this isn’t bad for a beginner. =) Enjoy!

***Ooops! I’m having a hard time uploading the video. And it’s late in the evening. Will upload it tomorrow.