Yesterday, I’ve finally decide to move out of the accommodation after 2 years of living here. Before, I have been firm with my decision of staying in this place and feeling contented with what I have. But things changed, my feeling had changed and I realised my life needs a change.
I will be moving out with my very close friend, Fe. We were on the same cohort (batch) deployed in London on October 2016. She’s really my best friend here and with the idea of moving in to a house, it would be her whom I would want to be with.
Before, the thought of moving in to a new house cringes me. Now I am excited! Eventhough it will still be on May 2019, in London, time goes by very fast because of the busyness of work and a lot activities that you can do.
In the last two years, I had shut down myself from the world. I travelled less, I did not go out more often with my friends as I was licking my broken heart on my own. Because that’s how I wanted it to be, I was taking it all in. I called my parents less often because I know that if they will ask how I’m feeling, emotionally, I wasn’t okay. But I have to say that I am alright for them not to worry about me.
Which is a hug mistake on my part. Everytime I call my parents in the Philippines and speak to my mother ’cause she’s the more talkative one, I always feel happy after the phone call.
Oh, this first heartbreak!
But no, I’m not moving out of the accommodation because I’m still heartbroken. I am moving out because I am now full to give my time, care, concern and love to my friends. ‘Cause the truth is, they are my family here.
Sometimes, you find happiness in your everyday when you give a part of yourself to people, may it be your time or effort to be there when they need you the most.
If you also noticed, I have not shared a lot about my feelings during the first days, weeks and months after the breakup. I shoved my thoughts away. I wasn’t ready to share at that time. And it’s not a healthy thing to do. That’s why after 7 months, it is only now that I am expressing how I really feel.
And this signals for a new beginning.
I am excited for a lot of things that I am planning to do in the next couple of months.
I have always read in the past that creating a dream board or vision board is essential if a person wants to reach her goals in life. And since I don’t have my own room in the Philippines, it is only here in London that I’ve decided to finally create my own vision board. At first, I labelled it as Dream Board, however, I kind of thought of changing it to Vision Board because if it’s a Dream Board, I don’t want goals to stay as “dreams”. I want to be able to attain those goals hence, I decided to change it to a Vision Board. The pictures here are what I visualise myself to have in the future. As what they say, print pictures or quotations in a place where you can see them when you wake up in the morning. It will serve as a reminder for yourself why you’re doing what you are doing now, the purpose of the sacrifices of being away from loved ones, the reason why you wake up early in the morning, and a motivation to go to work even if you feel like not going to.
Little by little, I have been incorporating “Minimalism” in my daily life. According to the website www.becomingminimalist.com,
“At its core, minimalism is the intentional promotion of the things we most value and the removal of everything that distracts us from it. It is a life that forces intentionality. And as a result, it forces improvements in almost all aspects of your life.”
It depends on every person how many goals she wants to place in the Vision Board. As I practiced minimalism, I only placed 6 pictures in my board. These pictures for me are the most important. I don’t want to place a lot of pictures because I don’t want to crowd my board which will only create noises in my vision and my mind. I want my board to be straightforward with only my top goals in it.
Here are the pictures I placed in my Vision Board.
1. Wedding picture
-This is an Instagram picture from the married couple Marika and Luigi Celdran. I am following this cute couple in Instagram and I love how simple their wedding was. I specifically loved the wedding dress of Marika because it is not the usual balloon type, it looks comfortable and light to wear which is exactly what I want in my wedding dress in the future. I only want a simple wedding in the future. I envision a relax, simple but elegant, with only the closest people attending the wedding.
2. Outside structure of a home
3. Minimalist living room area
3. Third floor garden
-I got these 3 pictures from Bianca King’s Minimalism-inspired, Scandinavian home. Oh, I love Bianca King. I love her way of living a minimalist lifestyle, being mindful and her advocacy of caring for nature and the environment. I followed her on Instagram and subscribed on her YouTube Channel and blog. It is my dream of having a home when I have my own family in the future. Just like her, I also love decorating my space. Since I am an introvert, I value my personal space and coming home from a tiring work, my room serves as my sanctuary. When I was thinking of buying the townhouse, I originally want the end unit with the garden, but it was so expensive and I wouldn’t be able to afford it that’s why I let it go and purchased the inner unit (without the garden) hoping that in the future, I will just place plants in the entrance. But when I watched the house tour of Bianca King, she also has the inner unit of a townhouse, what she did, she transformed her 3rd floor to a mini garden, barbeque area, placed a sophisticated roof and outdoor furniture. It was beautiful! I’ve never thought of it. So, if there will be an excess fund in the future, I can also transform the third floor into a garden. What a great idea from Bianca King.
4. A family having a picnic in a public garden
-I took this picture of a happy family in Fulham secret garden. They’re so lovely! I think quality time like this with the family is more important than travelling or any material things. I want to do this when I have my own family in the future, doing activities to spend quality time together.
5. Good relationship with my own family
-This picture was taken when I went home to the Philippines on February of this year. This by far is our most complete attendance (except that my youngest brother can’t make it here) and our most enjoyed trip ever because of the activities we did in this place. We went to Minalungao National Park in Nueva Ecija, just 45 minutes travel from our home. Me, my siblings and nieces did several activities like Caving, climbing the 2000 steps mountain, doing the zipline and with our parents, we ate in the raft while sailing in the clear and clean water of the river. My mom and dad, my Ate Cathy, Kuya RJ, Kuya Reagan, Denmark, Weng and my nieces Jewel and Precious were here.
To more bonding time like this.
I created this vision board when I was nursing my broken heart at the first quarter of this year. At that time, I forgot about my goals and the very reason why I’m here in London. I remember waking up in the morning, I felt so sad and had no motivation to do things. I know I had to do something then. I made this Vision Board to remind myself not to feel sad about the breakup and that everything happens for a reason. True with the saying, “When God closes the door, he opens a window.” The best is yet to come. And great things are coming. I have the work that I love here in London, I was granted an employer-sponsored study in London South Bank University, I have the opportunity to travel once in a while and I learned life-changing lessons from that first heartbreak that I will never know and understand had I not experience it. It was painful but necessary.
So, that’s it. I didn’t expect that this post will end up a little emotional but that’s fine. I had moved forward and in a good place now.
Thank you for reading this post.
I hope you are inspired to create your own Vision Board. 🙂
Hello… Monday again, this is the start of another week. I want to share the message I received yesterday from attending the mass in St. Joseph’s Church, New Malden. I am supposed to attend a service in Hillsong Church with friends in central London yesterday but since I don’t feel fine and I was so tired from 3 consecutive long day shifts from Thursday to Saturday, I just decided to attend the mass in a nearby church and stay at home after and rest.
I noticed that I am drawn to St. Joseph’s Church wherever I am. When I was in Manila, I used to attend the mass in St. Joseph The Worker Parish in Balintawak, Quezon City. Here in London, I chose to attend St. Joseph’s Church in New Malden and when I travelled to Sicily, Italy, one of the old churches I found fascinating is San Giuseppe dei Teatini church in Palermo. I think it’s also St. Joseph Church (when translated to English), or I may be wrong. I asked the priest inside the church if it’s a St. Joseph Church and he said, yes.
I remember years before, my friend said that when you are praying for The One, you should pray for that person in St. Joseph’s Church. It is because Joseph is the husband of Mary, and he is the ideal foster father for Jesus. I am always praying for my The One, anywhere. But I think it is a coincidence that I get connected to the messages the priests are delivering through the homily in these churches.
St. Joseph The Worker Parish in Balintawak, Quezon City
St. Joseph’s Church in New Malden, London
San Giuseppe dei Teatini in Palermo, Italy
Yesterday, the priest in New Malden mentioned in his homily about the purpose of the creation of laws, ten commandments, and the policies governing our lives. He said that laws are created to protect ourselves and other people. For example, we all know that drunk driving is prohibited. This law is created to protect you and other people from the accident. “When you drink, do not drive, when you drive, do not drink”, he added. Another example is about one of the Ten Commandments which is, “Do not kill.” The priest said, you have your life, and I have my life, why are you gonna take away my life? The next one is about lying. When you lie, you break the trust of the other person that you will be honest at all times. He said these laws are created not to inhibit us from doing the things that we want to do but to protect ourselves and other people. Sometimes, we wonder why are they creating such laws or policies? But we also have to think why these laws are created in the first place.
It is for us….
It is to protect us and other people. Now I understand its purpose and it made me realised that with the small laws that is being implemented whether it be at my work, in my flat, in the road, etc., adhering to these are for our own sake.
Something we all need to ponder.
P.S. This post was written a week ago. All images are from google.com.
“Keep your heart clear and transparent and you will never be bound.” – Ryokan
Just a quick blog post… I just wanna share something.
Earlier, I booked a flight to Sicily, Italy on the last of week of August. My relatives in Italy have been inviting me to visit them since I’m already living and working here in Europe.
Booking a flight in Italy has been so liberating for a lot of reasons. I have a constant battle with myself on whether to go there or not. I haven’t really travelled much since I arrived here in London. The only country that I’ve ever been to since I arrived in 2016 was in Paris, France which I travelled last year on my birthday. There’s a lot of things that’s holding me back. I was scared of the expenses, travelling alone, seeing my relatives on my father side for the first time, meeting them, there’s just a lot of fears. It is summer season in Europe, and with that, the price of flights tickets are expected to be high. Another thing that’s holding me back was the expensive flight tickets. But then, I won’t be able to go anywhere if I will keep thinking about the expenses and burning my savings. That’s why I still booked the flight even if the price is higher that usual. I just let go. Sometimes, the only thing that is necessary to do is to let go of all the worries. And after booking the flight, I felt so liberated. It is fearful to travel alone but at the same time, I felt so free knowing that I have a lot of things to learn with this experience. I felt like I’ve let go of the baggage that I’ve been carrying. It is true, fears and worries are crippling. I won’t be able to go anywhere if I have a lot of fears.
Yesterday, I’ve been wanting to relax and thinking of having a massage or a hair treatment. I always have a hair cut, hair treatment, manicure or pedicure in the Philippines when I’m feeling stressed. So yesterday, I went to Kingston Town Centre to have a hair treatment. I first went to Rush salon but their staff isn’t so accommodating and there’s no available time for me to have the treatment yesterday. Afterwards, I went to Toni & Guy Salon, but when the receptionist asked what I want to do with my hair, he just gave the price of the services and I feel that that’s not the salon that I was looking for. I was already feeling hopeless at that time, then I kept on walking in the market, when I saw another salon, I went inside and inquired and asked the price of Glossing. Then a man assisted me, answered all my questions, tried to explain what my hair needs, asked me to sit on the chair in front of the mirror and looked for the advice of the stylist on what she thinks my hair needs. And because of the kindness and rapport of the receptionist (Victor), even though the price is a bit expensive, I said yes, I wanna have the treatment now. Regarding the price, what can I do, I live in London, the prices of services here are expected to be really high. Actually, the main reason why I want to have the hair treatment is because I want a scalp massage. I just want to be relaxed. Part of the services of Headquarters Hair Salon is scalp massage and neck massage. It was so relaxing. The staff are very kind and professional. The money spent is worth it.
These are the moments I learned a lot about surrendering, letting go, being present and enjoying the moment and not being too serious about the future.
According to Merideth Goldstein of The Boston Globe, the quarter-life crisis occurs in one’s twenties, after entering the “real world”. Oftentimes, feelings of being “lost, scared, lonely or confused” about what steps to take to transition properly into adulthood are felt by the individual going through this crisis. (Wikipedia)
When I was working in the Business Process Outsourcing in the Philippines back on 2014, I was enjoying my job then but at one point, I started to think if it’s really the job where I want to settle and retire. I was 24 years old. I was always on night shift and I thought that I do not have a life anymore. I go to work at night time and during my rest days, I only stayed at home to catch up with the lack of sleep. What if I get married, have children, I don’t want to work on night shifts when I already have a family, I want a normal day job (all I ever really wanted is to have a family of my own, be a housewife, take care of my future husband and children) and I won’t be able to do that if I’m working on night shifts. I just want a simple life when I have my own family.
I tried to look for an office 9-5 job. I wanted a challenge, learn something new and somehow be promoted in the business industry. That’s when I decided to enter graduate school. I looked for several universities like De La Salle University-Taft (I even visited the campus to view it but I felt that it was not for me, it was so grand and posh). Instead, I chose University of Sto. Tomas (UST) – The Graduate School – because ever since college, I’ve always wanted to be a Thomasian. Being a probinsyana, my idealism of a college life has always been like in UST. But life has it’s own way of making things happen and I ended up studying in Chinese General Hospital College of Nursing (which I don’t regret, I wouldn’t be in London right now if I studied elsewhere). In studying nursing in Chinese Gen, I learned the value of studying hard to pass my exams, studying ever more after I have studied and studying the most after I had studied more and failed in the exam. I had spent sleepless night to review for my midterms, quizzes, moving exams, case presentation, etc. When everyone at home was already sleeping, I was still up and reading my ultra thick nursing books asking myself why am I doing this, I’m supposed to be enjoying my college life, this is not the college life that I was dreaming of when I was in high school in Nueva Ecija. And I have no choice but to go with the flow. Not knowing what the future is in store for me. Fast forward, 10 years after that, I didn’t know that all those hardwork will pay off. My siblings had seen my struggle to study, my parents did. I owe them a lot now that I am in London.
So going back in UST to study MBA (Masters in Business Administration), I was looking for inspiration and motivation to push me to finally enrol but I couldn’t find any, I was scared of the unknown. It took a while. I love reading magazines. It’s one of my sources of inspiration when I was a bit young. My older brother was a former layout artist of Enrich magazine and he brought home several copies of that magazine (thanks for that Kuya). The deciding factor that finally pushed me to enrol in The Graduate School was reading an article written by Amanda Balneg from Enrich magazine stating about how reading Paulo Coelho’s book “The Alchemist” had taught her to reach for her inner dreams. She stayed in her office job and every night after work, she goes to Instituto de Cervantes and studied Spanish language, applied for a scholarship in University of Salamanca in Spain and was granted the scholarship. That article inspired me and when I was randomly chatting with my teammate in Convergys, JJ, said that she had also read The Alchemist and she lent me the book. I was excited! Reading every pages of the book, I felt the lessons hit me hard and I read the book at the exact time I was looking for validation and a push to finally take a step towards achieving a change in my life. The Alchemist is about the story of a boy who left the town he grew up in to search for a treasure. And in searching for that treasure, he met a lot of people who had taught him the way of life, learned lessons and found true love along the way, reached for his destination not knowing that the treasure he was looking for was buried in his hometown.
After reading that book, I was so inspired and motivated and I finally decided to enroll in UST. I took the exam and paid my tuition fee from the money I saved every pay day at work. I had to choose 3 subjects, which I do not have an idea which from which. My gut feel says St. Thomas in Critical Thinking, Management of an Enterprise, and International Trade and Business. It was a very fun semester in UST The Graduate School. The only time in my life that I look forward to attending school. I had enjoyed every discussion and wrote on my notebook all the lessons in life that my professor was sharing which were making sense. And then in one of the subjects I had, I didn’t know that in International Trade and Business, my professor told us on the first day of class that we are going to Australia for the International trip. My parents paid for the 35% of the trip and I shouldered the rest from my savings. Though they did not require me to repay them, I returned the amount they gave for that trip when I was already here in the UK. Then the trip pushed through on the first week of March 2014. Because of that trip, Australia remained very close to my heart. I don’t know why but that country and continent became very special to me. Maybe because that’s my first trip outside the Philippines. Maybe because I was on a quarter-life crisis at that time and that trip gave me clarity on what I want to do in my life. Maybe because I thought that I may not be able to afford to go back in that beautiful country again in the future so might as well savor the moment. I was on a “turista” (tourist) mode at that time. I was in awe of that country.
It was an exposure trip. Travelling exposes a person to the beauty of the world. Travelling can be a gateway for a person to reach his goals. Australia was my first trip outside the Philippines. It was my first international trip. We went to Melbourne and Sydney. But what sets apart or changes everything was when I was in a river cruise in Circular Quay. It was a sunny day, I went up to the top part of the cruise to see the view of the Sydney Opera House and Sydney Harbour Bridge. The view was magnificent! “Is it real? Am I really in Australia?”, I told myself. I only see this view in a post card, or in a travel book, or in the television. This has always been one of my dreams. I thought at that time, “Why did I give up on one of my dreams which is to experience living and working abroad, to be independent, to experience living on my own, to save for the future and in God’s time, marry a good man and have my own family.”
I couldn’t believe on the effect of that trip to myself. After I returned to the Philippines from that trip, I contemplated with the lessons and realizations I had when I was in Australia. I finally decided to go back to nursing. So I went to my Alma Mater, go to the Nursing Service Department, asked if there are nursing vacancies. Timing, at that time, there was a shortage of nurses in the hospital and there will be an orientation for the new batch of nurses to start the following week and they asked me if I would like to start on that date. I said, yeah, sure! I would love to. So I resigned in the BPO company and even if I do not want to, I did not continue my MBA and went back to concentrate to nursing. I was thinking, I can always go back and study MBA again in the future.
This was one of the events of my quarter-life crisis that led me to where I am now. There were still other things that happened in the early times like thinking of studying another degree, looking for universities (I even went to Bulacan State University (BSU) one time to inquire about getting a 2nd degree), applying for several jobs, opening my own business, etc., so many thoughts. It was mentally tiring. Because you will keep on thinking and figuring out what to do with your life. My quarter-life crisis lasted for almost 2 years. I know I’m over it when I figured out what to do in my life in terms of career, what path to take which is the road where I am right now. Now, I’m a little bit more relaxed about where life will take me.
Looking back, now I know why things happened. Why I had to stay up late studying my nursing books during college even if I don’t want to. It’s because that moment was the start of my preparation for this job in the UK. I couldn’t see myself doing any other jobs at this point in my life. Maybe, this is where I’m meant to be.
Until now, there are times when a thought of switching job or location has entered my mind multiple times, but I don’t want to think anymore. I just want to be in the present moment and be grateful of what I have. I wouldn’t be here if this is not for me. We are meant to be where we are right now.
To anyone who might stumble in this post thinking you are experiencing a quarter-life crisis, I know you feel lost in life not knowing where to go, I’ve been there. You will eventually figure it out. Don’t plan everything, let life unfolds on its own. You only need to do the first step towards your dreams or goals, and then God, the universe will take care of the rest.
Guys, what is your experience of a quarter-life crisis? Please share it in the comment section below.
***All pictures from the post were taken from google images.
Today marks the 70 years since the NHS (National Health Service) was established. The aim of the NHS is to provide free health care at the point of use for the people in the United Kingdom. I only joined NHS on October 2016 and it is only now that I had realized the importance and how great this service is for its people and for the employees. They said that NHS is the best health care system in the world. I have also learned that the average life expectancy in the United Kingdom is 81.5 years. I can personally attest to that. Since I am working in a medical ward in the hospital, the majority of our patients are aged 70 to 90 years old. UK has a high life expectancy. And they said it is because of the health care system of the country. Living in the United Kingdom for 1 year and 8 months now, I have seen a lot of good things about this country. In general, they eat healthy food, the air is clean and there’s no pollution. There’s a lot of choices for vegan food, gluten-free diet, etc. in the grocery and restaurants. There are options to add salad in the meals, and their dessert consists mainly of fresh fruits like satsuma (orange), pears, banana and yoghurt.
Things I like about NHS:
One of the values that they are promoting is equality in gender and in race. There is absolutely no judgment. No matter what your background is, where you’ve come from, you will be treated the same as with everyone else. United Kingdom is one of the most multi-cultured countries in the world. While watching the 2017 New Year celebration Fireworks display in London, the beginning was a statement “Welcome to London!” said in different languages. United Kingdom acknowledges the contribution of other nationalities in the services of its people.
This is an ethical principle that was discussed to us in college. Justice is healthcare for everyone. Justice is equal and fair distribution of resources. And I must say, the resources are distributed to its people and the cost are shared by everyone through the tax that we are paying.
Free health care system
One thing that amazes me in working in NHS is the free health care system provided to its people. From the time a patient is seen by ambulance at home and brought to the hospital in the A&E (Accident and Emergency) department, transferred to AAU (Acute Assessment Unit) and zoned to a specific ward, jug of water is provided, tea, coffee, biscuits and cakes are served during teatime, menus are given for lunch and supper and choices are offered for breakfast, all the medication tablets, intravenous (IV) medications, inhalers, wound dressings, doctor’s rounds, nursing care, physiotherapy and occupational therapy, etc., if needed, throughout the whole hospitalisation are completely free. Upon discharge, depending on the condition, ambulance transport is being booked to send the patient home, TTO (To Take Out medications or the medications that the patient will need to take at home) are also being supplied for 2 weeks.
There’s also free diagnostic procedures like MRI, CT scan, PET Scan, Xray, etc., procedures like liver biopsy, chest drain insertion and for cancer patients, the chemotherapy is free and if surgery is indicated, it is also free. There’s the social services that provides the equipment at home if necessary like the sarasteady, commode or hoist for bedbound patients that will be discharge in their own home. It’s a holistic approach because if the patient will be discharged in the community that needs help, he can be referred to district nurse or alcohol support group, etc. I am wondering how rich this country is, to be able to provide a free health care to its people and the legal residents of the UK. It’s true, it’s an envy of the world. There are pros and cons of having a free health care, but this is the same as the pros and cons of all the things in life. We cannot disregard the fact of the benefit it is giving to the patients and for us workers.
Working in the NHS has given me a great experience and opened my eyes in the realities of life. That life is so much different for the people living in the first world country compared to people in the third world countries. This opened my eyes to the reality, from someone who grew up in a third world country, we can continue to hope that we can head to the direction of growth. That there is hope for my own country to improve. From this experience, I can cultivate the wonderful things that they are doing and maybe, when the time is right, I can go back to my home country and bring the wonderful ideas I learned from the West.
As an employee of NHS, it has given me good compensation, work-life balance, good trainings and opportunity to study that is sponsored by the employer, a lot of learnings encountered everyday at work that I can share to our colleagues, co-workers and student nurses.
There is so much realisations about life in itself that I am pondering even until now.
P.S. All pictures are taken from google.com images.
I came from long day shift today and I will be back tomorrow for another long day shift. I planned to cook so that I have a food to eat tomorrow on my break time. I have thought of the green rice, vegetables and oven-grilled pork chop. I had an idea to cook green rice when me and my friends ate 2 weeks ago in the Mexican restaurant ‘Wahaca’ in Wimbledon. I ordered grilled chicken and it was served with green rice. I got intrigued on how it was done because it tasted delicious and at the same time, looked healthy. I searched YouTube on how to cook green rice in a Mexican restaurant and that’s how I found out about it. What makes it green is the spinach that I placed on the blender. I added the blended spinach in the water in the rice cooker. I just mixed the rice using a spatula before I turned off the cooker so that the rice and greens are well-blended. That’s it! It’s so simple. Tried it and I loved it! Here is the meal I cooked. I always make sure that the meals I prepare are balanced. It should consist of carbohydrates (I will need the energy from carbohydrates for my 11 and 1/2 hours of walking at work) , vegetables (for my source of Vitamins and Minerals), meat (as the source of protein for muscle development and tissue repair) and of course, fruits (for additional Vitamins and Minerals). Here’s the meal I prepared. =)
There was one YouTube video I watched that really inspired me. I may be going through a difficult time because of the breakup that happened few months ago, these kinds of videos kept me going. It makes me feel hopeful about the future. I’ve been following the YouTube channel of Sadia, “Pick Up Limes”. Her channel is about minimalism, eating healthy, food and nutrition and health and wellness. She discussed the definition of SUCCESS from the words of Earl Nightingale. According to Earl Nightingale, “Success is a progressive realization of a worthy ideal.” According to Sadia, success is not about earning a lot of money and acquiring power. She discussed that when a person takes the first step towards his goal, he is already successful. Sadia said that for others, it may be having a first subscriber in your YouTube channel (that’s so me because as of now, I only have 1 subscriber in my YouTube channel. Hehe). According to Earl Nightingale, it may be a woman who takes the first step on becoming a wife and a mother because that’s what she dreams to be ever since she was young. On doing that first step, she is already successful. I can relate to that, I’ve always dreamt of getting married to a good man and being a wife and a mother in the future. Learning to cook, being independent, taking care of myself and working hard are my first steps toward that goal. When I cooked the green rice, I thought that I want to do this when I already have my own family. I might probably serve rice this way in the future. Through this, I can convince my future husband and kids to eat green leafy vegetables.
This is the YouTube video of Sadia in ‘The Pick Up Limes’ which is the inspiration of this post.
Guys, do you agree with this definition of success? Tell me your thoughts about it.
There was a change in my life. Because of this, I had to redesign some parts of my room. There was an empty spot in the wall and because of that, I thought of purchasing a painting. I went to Laura Ashley store and saw a beautiful painting with a scenery of purple flowers. I liked it however, the price was a bit expensive and told myself it’s not really a need that’s why I didn’t buy it. Then one day, I went to Wilko store to purchase something then I came across this painting / frame with a quotation,
“Travel the dream far enough so you find home.”
This painting resonated in my heart. I remembered my all time favourite book, “The Alchemist”. I read that book in 2014, the exact time in my life that I needed an inspiration to pursue my dreams. I thought of the lead character in The Alchemist, Santiago, an Andalusian shepherd boy. He left his town Andalusia to travel in search of a treasure. He travelled far enough and along the way, he met several people that gave him wisdom and met the love of his life while in search of the treasure. Santiago fell in love with Fatima and almost decided not to pursue his search for the treasure to be with Fatima. But Fatima doesn’t want Santiago to give up his dream just because he fell in love with her. She doesn’t want to be the reason why Santiago will stop chasing his dream. She encouraged Santiago to go and continue his journey. Fatima is happy to set Santiago free to pursue his dreams and to willingly wait for the time he comes back. She wants to be like the other ladies in her tribe who are waiting for their man to come back after a journey. I admired Fatima at that moment for becoming selfless. I can still remember the conversation between Fatima and Santiago. Fatima told Santiago, “I love you because I love you. There’s got to be no reason for it.”
Santiago travelled his dream far enough and when he reached Egypt which was his final destination, he had a dream that the treasure he was looking was buried in the place where he came from, in his hometown, Andalusia. So he went home and found the treasure and then he decided to go back to Fatima.
Same is true with reality, we keep on looking, searching and traveling in life hoping that we will find the treasure in the faraway land. Remember the quotation, “The grass is greener on the other side of the fence.” Sometimes, this isn’t true. In life, we reach a point that we had travelled enough, worked hard enough, sacrificed enough, and then suddenly realized that this were not the dreams that we’re hoping for when we were young. That the dream is found in our home. Whatever home means to you. Home may be the country where you’re originally from, the province where you lived or the town where you grew up. Home may be your first love. You have travelled far enough only to realize that you are yearning and longing for your HOME. Home is where the heart is.
Looking at this piece of item in Wilko store, that’s how I interpreted it. It’s like my imagination was thinking those deep thoughts and realizations. Ending, I bought the frame and placed it on the wall in my room. Now there’s no more empty space in my wall. The frame was just cheap and very light so I was able to carry it in a bag on the way home.
Guys, how about you? How do you interpret that quote?
Today, I realized that if things are not meant to be, there will be hindrances. Here’s what happened to me…
It was already in my plan before to open a savings account because I noticed, I tend to overspend if my salary stays in my payroll account. I have my payroll account in HSBC. I thought of opening an account to another bank, just to try other banks aside from HSBC. I immediately thought of opening an account in Nationwide Building Society. Nationwide is not a bank, it is a building society but they offer the same bank products like savings account, checking accounts, investments, etc. I called their hotline and inquired about account opening. I was told to do it online. That’s what I did. I opened an account online and waited for a couple of weeks and I heard nothing from my application. I walked-in to their branch in Kingston Town Centre and they can’t see in their end the application that I submitted and I was told to do the account opening in the branch and was instructed to bring valid IDs and proof of address. The following week, I came back to Nationwide branch with my valid IDs and proof of address but there’s another problem, the statement of account from HSBC that I brought which serves as my proof of address is outdated, they want a statement that’s either March or April only. I brought a February Statement of Account. I was very disappointed, I just told them I’ll just go back some other days. I thought at that very moment, maybe I am not meant to open an account in Nationwide. This is already my 3rd or 4th attempt, and there’s always something that’s going on that’s why it’s not pushing through.
I walked out to the road and thought of opening in another bank. I saw another bank from a distance which is TSB. I do not want to go back for another day to open an account. I went inside the TSB bank branch. I approached the branch employee, “Hi, I’d like to open a savings account.” The bank employee replied, “Unfortunately, we are currently not accepting account opening because the bank is undergoing a system upgrade. The process of system upgrade is until June 2, so you can just go back then.” She then handed me a business card in case I’ll go back to have the account opening. I accepted the business card, thanked the lady and turned around and made a big sigh. I thought, “Today’s not my lucky day.”
I continued to walk and saw the HSBC branch where I had my payroll account. I thought of inquiring about account opening since I was already there. I was expecting that I will be told to schedule an appointment because that was my experienced before, and it took us hours before me and my friends finished with opening an account. I went to the receptionist and told her I’d like to open a savings account, I have my valid IDs and statement of account, I also told her I have an HSBC account. She asked me if I brought my debit card, and I said yes, and gave it to her. She then checked my account online. She said yes, I would be able to open an account with them now. I was delighted. I asked her, how long will it take for me to open an account because I remembered before, it took me an hour for the whole process to be finished. She told me, no worries, it will only take 10 mins. I said, “Great!”
I was asked to wait for 5 mins for the bank employee to be available to assist me. After a few minutes, I was called and a lady bank employee asked me to follow her and asked me to have a seat in the chair. I was told that I can do the account opening through online banking. She asked me to log on to my HSBC online banking account. It was just a few steps, few clicks and few verification of information. And since I already have an HSBC account, my proof of IDs and proof of address were already with them, I don’t need to give them these documents anymore. She guided me in the process and in less than 10 mins, I was able to open a savings account. I told her, “Oh, that was fast! I never thought that account opening could only take 10 minutes. Thank you very much!” She smiled at me and replied, “No worries.”
I realized after coming out from the HSBC branch that sometimes, even with account opening, if the universe thinks that I am not meant to have the account in Nationwide and TSB bank, I won’t be able to open an account with them. (With Nationwide, not bringing my latest statement of account for proof of address and in TSB, which currently having system upgrade). Because the universe knows that I am meant to open the savings account in HSBC effortlessly. It was also a good thing that it was in HSBC that I had my savings account opened since my payroll is under this bank, I can just easily transfer my savings right away using my HSBC Mobile Banking App. (Compared to the hassle of transferring money from one bank to another)
To end this, just like what I stated in the beginning of this article, I learned that if things are not meant to be, there will be hindrances and delays. The things in life that are meant to be yours, sometimes it will be given to you effortlessly. I can attest to this. There were lots of things that were given to me effortlessly in the past because I realized they were meant for me. On the other hand, there were things that were not given to me because thinking of it, they were really not meant for me, may it be in career, love or simple things in the everyday life. No matter how much you want something, if it’s not for you, you won’t be able to have it no matter what you do. This is already out of context but you can be sad, you can question life. But here’s my advice to you, you can question everything but DON’T EVER GIVE UP because at the end of all life’s confusion, you will realize why things happened. You will be redirected by the universe to the path that you are meant to travel to.
Guys, did you also have weird experiences opening an account? Please comment below, I would love to hear from you.
Hello guys! I apologize for being absent in the blogging world for several months. I have a love affair with blogging. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I just don’t feel like doing it. I went for hiatus in blogging to concentrate on a new chapter in my life. I had shared in the previous posts that I had moved to London, England on 2016 to work as a nurse. It’s been more than a year now. Looking back, I never thought that I will be at this point in my life. Remember the quarter life crisis I experienced on my early 20s, the career shifts, etc.
These were my fears before I moved to the UK. Can I make it living on my own? Can I start a new life in a different continent, in a different country, a place that is very far from where I came from. It’s been more than a year now. And in that 1 year, I’ve learned to take a risk in life and love. I tried to face my fear of doing something I’d never thought I can do. I had learned to trust life, to trust in the Higher Being. I believe that there is a reason for everything. That things will happen if it’s meant to happen. I don’t question life anymore because at the end of the day, something good will rise from all the negative things. Hope is moving forward even if it’s hard because you want to get pass that stage of your life. If you are not yet contented in to where you are right now, if you think you deserve more, then you are right. If you are not yet happy, then strive to achieve whatever it is that will make you happy. Whether it’s in your job, relationships, family, health, etc.
I went on break in blogging because I concentrated on settling in my new life and career here in London. I reviewed for the exam, (while working) for me to become a registered nurse in the UK and thankfully passed the examination on July 2017. For the readers who are thinking that it was an ‘easy-everything-1-year’ since I arrived here, it was definitely not. There were probably more failures in this road to UK compared to everything that I had ventured ever in my life. The majority of the steps in applying as a nurse in the UK, I had failures. But why didn’t I give up? According to Sonia Ricotti, never give up because just when you are to give up is when things are about to turn around in a grand way. I hold on because I know that great things are waiting for me around the corner. This is the e-mail that I had been waiting for on July 2017. Finally, I passed my exam after two failed attempts!
The whole process was very hard and tedious and it took me 1 year and 9 months to get my PIN. That is from taking my IELTS on October 2015 until I passed the Part 2 – Test of Competency on July 2017. To be honest, I cried when I received the result on my e-mail. This is the destination of all the hardships that I had to go through when I was still working as a nurse in the Philippines. This is the destination, but the journey is still the sweetest. So after receiving this e-mail, I immediately informed my ward manager Katherine, the Practice Development Nurses Siobhan and Richard, my closest friends here in the UK, my siblings, Ryan, and made a long distance call to my parents in Nueva Ecija, Philippines. My mother was very happy and said that she had always been praying for me, I know my father did the same.
Before I passed the exam, I worked as Band 3 – ONP and was wearing this white uniform.
After receiving the e-mail, I excitedly arranged my Nursing and Midwifery Council (NMC) registration and received my PIN after 48 hours. Afterwards, me and my friend Fe, who also passed the exam, went to the sewing room of the hospital to fit our new band 5 uniforms. I chose two dresses and 1 tunic with trousers. I’ve always wanted to wear dress with black stockings and black shoes on duty. And when I got the uniform, my new ID and new name plate, I lay them all on my bed and I even took a photo of them. Here it is…
This is me wearing my new uniform happily. Simple joy… Pinaghirapan ko kasi talaga ito! (I really worked hard for this!)
*** P.S. I had written this a long time ago and it stayed on my draft folder for 7 months. I want to publish this to remind myself of my UK journey and the happiness I felt when I became a registered nurse in the UK. I know being a nurse in the UK is just a phase in my life, that I should enjoy every moment of it even if the work is hard and be grateful for the opportunity that was given to me. With this experience, I am learning a lot not only as nurse but also as a person. I have grown and realised on my own what really matters in life and it’s not money, travel or career. Despite the fact that I’m living in a first world country, I am still a simple person, my ultimate dream remains the same which is to have my own family, be a wife and mother. I will use this as a motivation to my work to give quality care to my patients and share the lessons that I learned here in my blog to anyone who might stumble on my life stories. To you reading this, do not give up even if you had failures, if you really want to achieve your dreams, keep on trying.