My heart melted….

Hello! Just a quick blog post. It’s already 23:06, I had my long day shift earlier. I came home at around 20:30 and cooked chinese-style fried chicken inspired from the the Chinese food takeaway I had on Sunday. It was delicious.

My fried chicken, it was delicious as well. I watched a video from Youtube on how to cook the recipe and now I know how to properly fry the chicken without too much oil outside. And the secret is not to use any breading. You just marinade the chicken, dry the chicken using paper towels before deep frying.

Well, the reason why I blog today is because I want to share what happened earlier in my shift. I was feeling bad in the shift because I knew that my communication skills (especially speaking or conversing or communicating) was not superb. It was just okay. I find it hard to communicate (in English) with my patients, patient’s relatives, doctors and co-workers what I was thinking. It happens to me, when I am physically tired, I become mentally tired also that speaking English becomes an effort.

English is my second language and this is what I use for this work. I can speak and understand English. But sometimes, I am unable to express the bits and pieces because of exhaustion. I can’t think of the right words anymore. Those were the times that I realised that speaking a second language is really an effort.

But it made my day when my health care assistant (HCA) thanked me for a fantastic shift and said, “If I will become a nurse, I wanna be like you.”

My heart melted. I smiled and replied, “Aw… Thank you.” It warmed my heart.

Earlier in the day, I was disappointed with myself thinking I could have done better in communicating and explaining what’s happening in the plan of care for the patients. But I think it’s just me. On my part, I take time to listen to my patients, allow them to verbalise their concerns and as much as possible, to respond appropriately and therapeutically even if it takes effort to put ideas into words. I shouldn’t have been too harsh on myself and I know that everyday, I am doing my best for my work and that is the most important.

“Always do you best.”

This is the Fourth Agreement in the book of Don Miguel Ruiz, “The Four Agreements”. According to him, always do your best. Your best may change from time to time. It may change when you are sick or when you are healthy. In every circumstance, always do your best. And in my case, still doing my best when feeling tired as well as when feeling refreshed and new.

I need to sleep now because I have another long day shift tomorrow. Good night!

 

P.S.

This post was written on 14/01/2019 but unable to post because I have no time and strength to figure out how to use the new Block editor of WordPress. It’s my off today that’s why I was able to watch videos from Youtube on how to disable the new editor and use the classic editor instead.

Have a great day, everyone! 🙂

 

 

 

What makes a good life?

I would like to share this conversation with my 91 y/o patient. She told me that she had survived the 1935 Quetta earthquake. How did she survive? Here’s her story.

Her father was serving in the military. Quetta, is the largest city in Pakistan, and at that time was under the British rule. One night, when she was sleeping, her dog named Sally kept biting and pulling her blanket. It seemed like Sally wanted her to follow her. She was wondering what it was.

And then her father told her, “Just follow her”. So she followed Sally and they went outside.

After few minutes, a strong earthquake happened and the whole building where she came from was totally destroyed and had fallen.

“My life was saved by Sally and at 91, I am still alive”, she said with a smile beaming at her face. I replied, “Wow, I couldn’t believe that you experienced that. And it’s true that animals can sense if a natural calamity will happen and your dog has saved your life. How old were you then?”

“I’m only 7 years old when that happened. I served in the military and my husband was a soldier in WWII. We were married for 54 years. My husband developed post traumatic stress disorder after serving in the war and I looked after him when he was ill. He’s not with me anymore, he left 10 years ago. It was a pretty good life, I served in the military and I had a wonderful marriage.”

I was touched by her story. How did our modern world ever got this complicated? Where in fact this is the best time to live? Before, they only have a simple life and what they only need to do was to thrive following the effects of war.

I remember another conversation before with my 103 y/o patient.

Patient: “Do you know how old am I?”

Me: “Yes! You’re already 103 years old! What’s your secret?”

Patient: “Have a job you love.” (Simple advice and yet so true.)

Me: “What was your job before?”

Patient: “I was a music teacher in London. And children from London were very behaved. I enjoyed my job then.”

 

Her advice must be true. Because work takes the majority of our time. And if your work is stressful, it would be easy for a person to develop a sickness or disease. Maybe having a job you love is one of the secrets to long life. And being simple and contented could be factors for a happy life. A life that is not in pursuit of money or power.

On being contented…

October 27, 2018 marks my 2nd year of working in London. Time flies so fast. The reason why I always say this is because I’m enjoying everything that London is offering me. It’s a great experience and I will always be grateful for the opportunity that was given to me.

I can still remember three years ago, I was just staring at the facebook flyer inviting nurses to work in the United Kingdom. I was still a nurse back then in a medical surgical ward in a tertiary hospital in Manila. I remember the anxiety I felt when I took the IELTS (International English Language Testing System)  which was so expensive. The price at that time was around Php 9,000 and I used my own savings to pay for this exam.

To be honest, I am enjoying the place too much because I know in my heart that there will come a time that I would have to go back to the Philippines. When? I don’t know. All I know is that Philippines will always be my home and I will be back.

I love me. I would never want to trade myself for another person’s life. I love everything about myself, my body, my family, my work, my scars (literally and figuratively) and I would never want to change anything. God made me who am I and planted me in a place where I am meant to be.

You will never ever hear this statement from me before.

This is far from me when I was in elementary, high school, college and in my early 20s. I have a lot of insecurities when I was young and there was a lot of things about myself that I want to be changed. I disliked my eyes, my legs, my knees, my navel, being flat chested, my feet, my hands, my hair because I was comparing myself to my classmates and friends.

I used to tell myself, “I wish I have this, I have that”. I was so harsh on myself before. Now I have reached contenment. I appreaciate and love myself.

This statement is said with all sincerity, “Everyone is beautiful in our own unique way and we shouldn’t compare the physical attributes of one person with another.” She is beautiful, you are also beautiful, everyone is beautiful.

I have nothing more to ask. I am happy with my life, it isn’t perfect, but enough. I am thankful to the Lord, for the work of the Holy Spirit in my life and the change He has done in myself. I do not desire for travels, material things, more money or higher position anymore.

I have been attending the weekly sunday mass in St. Joseph’s church and the priest had repeatedly said in the homily not to compare yourself to other people and to be contented with what you are and what you have. He also mentioned to dream. He said, “You can dream whatever (said with all conviction, whateeeeever) you want, but do not do it at the expense of other people”. So true.

I was able to go to UK because I worked hard from it, not because a relative has helped me or someone I know from London helped to process the papers. In fact, I have an Auntie here in the UK and the only time she found out that I was here was when my sister posted a photo of my departure from NAIA. Probably because of my introvert personality, I was shy of letting other people know my goals and plans.

If I already have my own children in the future, I will tell them that they are free to choose whatever career they want to have in the future and to be able to reach for their dreams, they have to work hard for it (And I will be there behind their back). To never use other people to reach the top, but work hard to be there. And to always be kind and compassionate to other people – the greatest lesson from being a nurse. And never become materialistic and instead, invest on themselves and find joy in pursuing their passion by uplifting and inspiring other people. To not work for money but work because that’s what they love to do.

I don’t desire Louis Vuitton, Prada or Chanel bags. I don’t fancy diamonds or expensive travel vacations.

I love the simplicity of my dreams.

My dreams when I was young (innocent dreams) are still the same with my dreams now. It has never changed.

I have a non traditional mindset and most of the times, I find it discouraging when I tell my simple dreams to other people and all they say was, “Sayang naman” (what a waste). I am afraid of being judged and to spare myself from the negative comments I may receive, I just keep things to myself or pour them in this blog. I can really say that every person is unique. I have dreams that the people around me might not understand.

Now I know why I became a nurse. It is indeed a noble job. You will handle so many shitty things, you will have to answer so many complaints and even if your whole body and mind are dead tired, you find fulfillment in every smiles and thank you’s you will receive.

You will find joy in cleaning the wound of a patient who had a motorcycle accident and in giving analgesia and alleviating the pain of another patient. – My experience in my shift yesterday in A&E (Accient and Emergency) department of the hospital. It was my first time doing a bank shift (OT or overtime) in A&E and I did really enjoy working there. I will definitely book another shift in that area.

To sum this up, each of us has our own struggles and challenges in life. It doesn’t mean that others don’t have problems but because some people are just good at handling them.

That being said, we shouldn’t compare ourselves to others.

Let’s be contented in where we are in our life right now and let’s enjoy the ride!

Great Things Are Coming

Hello guys, how are you? I’ve been extremely busy these past few days and there’s really a lot I want to share in this blog. It’s just that I procrastinate. How can I overcome procrastination? I actually wanted to create a blog post before my trip to Italy with the theme – “Great things are coming”. The trip to Italy was one of those.

I just came back from Italy 2 days ago. It was a 5-day trip and I went home with a lot of stories, memories, experiences, and Italian recipes. There will be a separate blog post of my Italy trip in the coming days or weeks.

There’s something I am looking forward to next month. Here’s the story… On the 2nd quarter of this year, I have a thought of applying for CPD (Continuing Professional Development) units in one university in London. It’s an employer sponsored study. I know I will be able to learn a lot from the course that’s why on the 1st of July, I finally decided to submit an application online in London South Bank University to study the course Care of the Deteriorating Adult Patient.  I waited for more than a month and I haven’t heard any update from my application. Finally, on the 14th of August, I received an email that my employer has approved the funding of the course.

I got excited when I received the email. I was on duty at that time. I would like to attend as much seminars and courses as possible here in the UK because UK offers fantastic trainings and courses. The knowledge and information serves as takeaways that I can apply at work. Never have I imagine myself being able study in a university in London for free.

I can still remember when I was in high school, my older sister brought home several magazines of universities in the UK and I was looking and reading those magazines wishing that I can also study there. Looking back, I didn’t expect that it will come true. I know I will learn a lot from this course which I can also share to my colleagues and inspire future nurses.

To other nurses in the UK who wants to have further studies, I encourage you to take advantage of the seminars, courses, trainings and boot camps that your employer is offering. Believe me, with the knowledge that you will gain from these trainings, you will be able to perform your work more confidently than before.

 

***Further study image is from google.com